Just saw this! Welcome and wondering how things are going this summer. Can identify completely with your period of wanting to give up. Almost reached that point this summer when I couldn’t handle carrying another gallon of water to the garden or dragging hoses around due to our long period of no rain. Everyone around me seemed to get the rain but the clouds just went around us. But somehow I can’t give up entirely and now finally rain is coming! Tomatoes are starting to ripen so it’s good. Mother Nature can certainly test our resilience and commitment.